Shades-XI

Tammana had not loved him because she wanted to, but she fell for him as she was meant for it. They had hardly met since when she had started having the weird feeling for him.. Even she was amazed with the degree of involvement, she had started falling into.

Tammy carried on the story, saying, and “Each fine day I would dress up like it was my B’day and wait for the bus. My eyes would toggle around for the most unfamiliar but equally familiar face that would pay even a little attention to her. Some of the days, I couldn’t even find him in the bus & that day went as the worst part of me. The day would pass, but I would stay them and there. Today I feel how stupid I was & what all stupidity love makes human do. It completely transforms a healthy living human to the most vulnerable and equally stupid creature on this earth. I could feel the sensations of the same driving in the insight of me. What I couldn’t understand was whether to get rid of it or flow in the same pace?”

“It was one of the most awaited Sunday, as we used to gang out, with due permission from our parents. The same sources, our low floor buses, were out beginning and the destination. We were a gang of five girls, the famous five and we would drench ourselves into the fun and frolic on Sundays. Movies, hang out and every other fun filling activity, that appeared in our dignified boundary. I always had a compassionate lust towards drinks and always wanted to taste them, once in my life time. We were in the complete party mood, travelling in the same red colored bus, which was supposed to be our lifeline. It was a singer’s eve, where we were supposed to go. We were allowed to attend the show till 7pm and that was more than enough for us. Out of no where, a thing came in my notice. No wonder it was the same notification, which was running in my mind since my fall for him. It was hard enough to believe what was right at my front. My gang didn’t know about all these, as I had never been a kind of person, who would share the insights. But, my sudden blush and temperament change could hint them that something was fishy. I tried my level best to avoid any direct eye contact and any further notification. The fate had decided something else. This time he wasn’t travelling alone, he had a big bunch of guys, along with him, that was kindling his confidence. I saw him whispering in his friend’s ear and walking towards me. I felt as if I would loose my senses, feeling of hiding myself in the bus floor, I was behaving like an Ostrich, actually.”

Ankush was surprised with the word Ostrich, that came in the story and started with his query, “Tammy sorry for interrupting you , but can I know what was an Ostrich, the flightless bird doing, in between you and the guy. Tammy was amused at the query he had developed from his little older brain. She smiled and explained the logic how an Ostrich would hide his head, under the ground, stupidly thinking that nobody would be watching it. Ankush was laughing at the stupidity, that a flightless bird was showing and his innocent smile was adding more life in Tammy’s life. She felt more alive with every little smile he would shower, in her so called life.

BULLSHITTTTTTT.........U and I....

U says, he is my past,
I says I believe in exclusive present..
U says, its all over,
I says there is always a beginning..
U says,U are not the perfect for I
I says, there is nothing perfect in the world..
U says,I would get better than U,
I says,U are the best for me..
U says,lets move on,
I says,the gear is still stuck..
U says,we would be the best friends
I says,I just need the best of U..
U says,U wants I to be happy,
I says,U are my happiness..
U says,we would maintain a distance,
I says,U are already  far from me..
U says,U would remember I as a person whom U wanted to be a part of U's life,
I says,U have become my entire life..
U says,take a decision and let me know,
I says,I had already decided in the beginning..
U says,things have changed,
I says,they had already changed..
U says,plan for your successful future,
I says,there is no planning for an unhappy future,without U..
U says,there s nothing in U's hand
I says,then why did U hold my hand??
U says,we are no more in a relationship,
I says, is relation  just a ship to sail??
U says,U's love will always stay,
I says, why can't U stay with it??
U says, live a happy life,

I says, kill me before I die.... 

U the Only U!!!!!

Ur words I relied , ur thoughts I replied,
U made me dream again,
Then why are the dreams now horrifying me??

Believing ur luv was my nature,
Being in it forever was my world,
Let the feeling mature
Ruining the moulds before they ripe, is not the actual source

I cannot be like this anymore,
The old practical figure standing numb,
I cannot be away from U,
Before I destroy everything within me, just come hold my thumb

Words would fail, feelings would die,
U will go away, but where will I??
That fine day I tell U,
It would not be me, but a par t of  me on the same numb drive......

Why does comma exist if full stop is the final verdict?????

Have you ever wondered on this simple statement. I did and I am doing it since last one month. Each time my energy is used in this thought, i think its definitely worth to be noticed. Out of such a busy schedule , if my mind is stumbling on such a silly question , there must be something thats beyond the silliness. But what?? Complete 1 month has passed and I am still seeking the answer to it. Finally I have decide to seek some help from you guys. Maybe I get an answer and moreover the peace I had been seeking since long.
My question is as simple as me. Why does comma exist in the English vocabulary , when everything would be put to and end with a full stop. Is there any suitable reason behind breaking  a complete sentence in the mid, when the end to it will be accompanied with the so called full stop. Since childhood I used to wonder why do such class tests exist, when one fine day we need to sit for the finals. And not to forget that the entire syllabus would be coming in the finals.People become professionals, the Big brats of the business world. They would write and learn great lessons over time management and optimum utilization of the same kind of stuff. Then what do you think these tests used to do , simply killing our time and energy. Some people say have patience you will get everything in life. Do they even have any idea about what everything means for the someone , whom they lecture. If patience was the keyword why were we forced to learn hard work. Can someone answer , when such hard work doesn't pay and the patience make people so impatient , that they start fearing even single minutes. The simple answer would be no. People take birth, then comes a comma, they go to school , again comes a comma, they move to college, make friends and many more things, easily understood, without explanation, and here comes the comma  again. The college places them to some great companies, paying rich perks, then comes the next comma. People start thinking that there is no comma no full stop, then after. Do you really think so?? The very next day a sudden accident, a sudden market downfall, or the most common a sudden break up , would disastrously turn you down. All the commas' would ultimately come to a full stop, with fair chances of getting along , apart from the fatal errors , that can never be cured.
People come over from all the things, but my question still remains open. If the end is static, why the hell do we need to go through all these mam. Doesn't someone like our happiness and patience or someone enjoys trick n treat with us. We move in professional lives , treading lots and lots of steps, one fine if something goes wrong ......... full stop.  Same with the personal life, we get along with someone, we love someone more than anything in our life and one fine day as the other half wants to be more professional, they would voluntarily put the full stop. Not even thinking what the other half would be going through.
When everything has to come to a full stop, why such breaks marked by comma comes, just to test our patience or to make the difficulties feel that we are more difficult than them..HA HA HA :D LOLZZZZ....

Hope we get an answer soon ...........
Or the best way is to such concentrate on marking the best word to come before the full stop and concentrate only on it, and forget about the commaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ and its breaks........

Shades-X

Ankush had put a new full stop in her life. It was such a long time, since she had paused or settled herself besides something. The innocence he had carried had forced the softer side in her to turn it on. All that she had buried deep in her insides , were now over flowing once again. She was not believing what she was being forced of doing, that to due to such a minor reason , that had come up out of no where in her life.

The sudden soft and tender touch on her left cheek, made her recollect her senses back. She looked up and could see Ankush standing right at her front. Her smile gave him an expression , that he was free to put up his next quest. Without loosing even a single minute then, he smiled at her and she could very well understand what it said. She needed to continue her story , she had left in mid. Starting from where she had left, she continued her flow of words, " He got down at few earlier stoppage than where he did last time. I could see him realizing my eyes watching his insides. He was even a little nervous as I did the same. It wasn't intentional, but my insides were forcing me for the same. Every single moment, when I wasn't looking at him I felt something missing around. This was the only reason , that despite his uneasiness I was again and again looking at him. I know it was absolutely stupid of me , but couldn't help." Ankush just kept smiling at the words, overwhelming with the emotions, within her. But ,she couldn't find enough space in her dreams to notice the same. She was lost in her dreams and kept on with her narration, "My stomach felt an unusual feeling as I saw him step down the bus. My instincts were forcing me to stop his steps and ask him to stay forever. I had never been such a kind of girl with over expressions, but this was a different situation today.  There was nothing in my control for the first time, but the best thing was that I was even enjoying this out of control feeling.  Neither h stopped nor could I stop him from going away from my site. There was only one thing I could do was watch him, as the motion of the bus dragged his sight away from me. It was the last time in the month that I saw him as my dream exams had approached and I had to work really hard. My exams even couldn’t keep me away from thinking about him and every expression that revealed his insides. The next few days went on in the world of exams and studies. This was the time I was working hard for both the exams, and truly speaking, both would let me achieve my dreams. One was the dream I had built since childhood and the other that had been built in the due course. None of them could be over looked as both had become the life blood for me.My will power was struggling between what I desired and what I required. It was a time ,when I had to decide which way to take as uncertainty was the thing that had surrounded me from either sides. Nothing was clear in my mind , neither my attraction to him nor to my academics.”

A Day at an NGO- First Experience

"A night at the call centre", I thought was the most unexpected night that could happen in one’s life. But, recently I have realized that not only night, but also a day at some place that one had thought in life can be of a similar kind. Dreams and aspirations play a vital part in one’s life, if you just dream, it’s not necessarily vital but aspirations add life blood to dreams.

Some thing of a similar kind happened with me last Saturday. I had been dreaming about becoming an Air Force Pilot, some times a Teacher and sometimes even Miss. World, but they only had images in my eyes, not in my mind. I never aspired to become the same, so I never became serious at becoming the same. Today that’s the only reason I am working with an IT co. and not with the Indian Air Force or some convent school nor am I doing ramp modeling for Lakme India Fashion Week. But, there was one thing that had been in my conscience since my childhood days.

It was even carried in my adulthood and still prevails inside me till date. Apart from the person I am and the way I lead my life, I had always aspired to some or the other ways do something for the sake of others. Those others, who don’t belong to my breed neither, are they my blood relatives, nor do I have any other friendly relation to them. Some unknown figures that I am connected, only for the sake of humanity. The bond that every human shares and wants to be shared, in case of need.

I had always wanted to help some needy people around me. I never left any chance in my life to fulfill those requirements that had been in my hands. But, last Saturday, I got an official chance to visit an NGO , in Jaipur , itself. It had been the beginning of my aspiration, to do something for the needy.  It was my first experience at such a place. I had no idea of how and what had to be done. Its an NGO that takes care and trains such students, who couldn’t continue their normal studies, due to either family problems or life constraints.

One of my immediate junior works there and I got this golden opportunity just because her. Firstly, I thank her to make me meet such wonderful folk of people. I was invited as a guest lecturer, for throwing lights on Retail segment of business world and certain soft skills training as well.

As I entered the room I could watch all the faces light up in anticipation, for learning something new from a new face. They all stood up together and I could feel the respect they had for the GURU, who would teach them, the right path for their bright future, a head. I started with a small dot that I drew on the white board and invited ideas about what they thought about it. They answered well, but not what I actually wished to extract. They found a simple dot, a full stop and point in it, but I wanted them to realize the beginning of a line from that point. Explaining them the other side of the coin was great as they were paying full attention to every word, I spoke.  

I poured out whatever I felt could had helped them. They were full of questions and curious to know about things, happening around. Giving them lessons about soft skills, I could feel what they most feared was about their communication skills. I gave them the tips and tricks to improve them without much effort and pain. The satisfaction they had on their face, released a real strength in me. I felt as good as it was the best thing I had done in ages.

Concluding the class, I brought them back to the dot that I had drawn on the white board in the very beginning, but this time I could see the changed angle of their minds. At last some one asked me about my introduction, it was then that I realized that I was so involved with them, that I hadn’t even introduced myself.

The best thing what I loved was that ,they were not only keen about themselves, but equally respected and wanted to know the person , who was taking care of them. I enjoyed being with them and would definitely move forward if I get a chance to associate with them or any other NGO as well in future.

This was my aspiration, and I got to achieve it more. This was just a mere beginning. There is also a request for all to kindly find some time from your busy schedule for betterment of all such things that really need an aid.

You never know that a moment spared for them could add millions of happy moments to their lives ……..

“HOPE AND WISH ALL SUCH FACES TO CARRY SMILES ON THEIR FACES AND SUCEED D MOST IN LIFE”

Shades-IX

Tammy was afraid with the real senses returning back to her. But was she was more afraid about was loosing the smile that ankush had carried in the entire journey till now. She couldn't afford loosing such a precious thing in her life. After "HIM" it was Ankush alone who had managed reviving her back into what she was actually.It was Ankush itself who has made her realize how special she was ,as "HE" used to do earlier. She was very deeply afraid of loosing the same. Tammy even though knew that this wasn't a serious issue. Even then the lost things in her life made her react in such a strange manner.She no longer could take it and rushed towards Ankush from the door of the coach, she was traveling in. She hadn't realized her walk out of the coach thinking about all these things.
She entered the coach with a thud and headed towards Ankush, clearing the people coming in the mid-way. She was in such a rush, that she even knocked down one of the luggage bag of one of the fellow passengers. As the bag fell with a thud sound on the ground, she remembered the very instance when "HIS" bag had fallen in her lap. Collecting back her conscience, she once again headed to Ankush as if she would miss some train if she didn't reach in time.
Reaching Ankush's seat , she threw a deep breath as she hadn't taken any pauses in the entire run. Taking two more deep breaths, she went right in front of Ankush. Lifting his face and carrying it in her soft hands she held it upwards.Ankush red nose and rosy cheeks due to anger made her smile instantly. She smiled at her and kissed his forehead saying, " You are more valuable to me than any thing else I could ever have in my life".
The very next moment the kiddo with all her strength kissed and hugged her back. They Hi-Fived each other and continued with the same rhythm and happiness.

Shades-VIII

"Realizing his nervousness, I withdrew my direct looks from his face. Even I didn't want to create an unusual situation for none of us.Today he got down few stoppage before the one he took last time. I was very inquisitive but still tried being calm and composed as this wasn't suiting my profile, to be so impatient. Also there were fair chances of my friends catching a hold of my impatience that would be the biggest disaster. There was definitely something or some connection between us but couldn't realize the same." continued Tammy. Ankush with the same smile plastered all over his face looked at her, as if wanted to ask  Tammy some important question.
Raising her eyebrows, Tammy asked the Kiddo what it was. Ankush hurriedly jumped to his question as if was waiting for this particular ball to be in his court.He impatiently poured his thoughts," Tammy cross your heart and tell me something". Tammy was puzzled,but he kept insisting her to do the same. Finally Tammy crossed her heart for his sake.After being relieved with Tammy's crossed heart, Ankush continued," Didn't the same situation happen to you when you met me. I know you will feel shy saying that but let me know dear. Its totally ok. Tell me if you felt the same for me as well."
Tammy laughed at the end of her strength for the same. She felt all her vocal cords touched with such rolled on laughters, knots being tied in her stomach , she had had after meeting the kiddo. She just pulled his chubby and fairly pink cheeks and continued," I felt even more desperate after seeing you kiddo, I felt why were you such a late entry in my life. Why didn't you come earlier in my life." , and she started laughing again. She laughed till her stomach really ached.
Ankush was very smart and could understand the fun Tammy was making of him. He turned his face away from her, a little angry and upset. Suddenly Tammy realized his turn around and pulled him to her, "What happened kiddo? Why are you upset? Are you angry on something?" ,Tammy noticed his fairly pink face turning red and signs of anger floating all over the same.  Ankush didn't reply on even a single question of hers and buried his face even more deeper in his arms folded around his knee.
Tammy now felt really bad on hurting the kiddo as she was just kidding. It was her very old nature that she had carried. But with the practical life in full pace, she had avoided the same. She realized that she had again encountered her same behavior today, after such a long.
 She also realized that she had done this with only people close to her.She never kept any boundaries for them and in due course somehow hurt them without any realization.Same was the situation today. She started thinking about ways to bring back the same Ankush ,as it was ages ,she had felt the same. She didn't want to loose Ankush nor the real personal side of hers, returned in her.

Shades-VII

"Even trying to concentrate on my day dreaming fantasies, I was not able to concentrate. The sight of the sweet benevolent smile was disturbing the momentum of my dreams.Trying to concentrate on my dream track was getting really difficult, until he was seated besides me. Suddenly his rising from his seat ,caught my attention and  I started looking straight at him, thinking he was leaving the bus. Even he could easily understand my desperate look ,but suddenly, realizing the googly I turned my looks away from him, immediately. As a gentle man he got up to offer his seat to a needy old lady. This was the second thing that impressed me about him. From the very first moment I knew that I was thinking about him in vain, but was helpless in avoiding it. Finally my destination called me towards stepping away from the fantastic journey I was into.But the dream world ,his first glimpse had created was still flowing in the air. It was the first day I didn't want to step down the bus, even though I was about to reach home for my favorite lessons ,as already said I was mad working hard to tag my name with the two valuable initials "Dr."But I got down pretty sure that I would never meet him again.It was the my first night that went totally sleepless, no MCQs solved, infact number of new MCQs revolved around me.Totally helpless and clueless ,some how  I managed   1-2hrs sleep that got ruined with my morning alarm. It was difficult to believe, but had to believe that I was thinking about something apart from my life's dream.
Two days passed , same bus ,same route and same time , but what was not same was the one whom my eyes really wanted to look for.I started consoling myself that it was just a blow of a wind , that came and went.So, it would be fruitful to concentrate back on my already made dream ,rather than building a new one. But ,there is a famous saying,"Everything is pre-written and nothing can be re -written", the same happened with me. The complete week went on and I started to gel back with my studies but suddenly with a blow again I met him. The scarf on my face couldn't make him recognize me, but the smile on his face made me realize every bit of him even more than before. I kept looking at him and I could even realize his nervousness due to my continuous and static looks, straight into his eyes, that too from such a near view.", Suddenly Tammana stopped speaking at the sight of Ankush's expression that were so pure to personify. Ankush kept on smiling and listening to the story as if a movie was being played right in front. He kept on flowing the small packets of his emotions, accompanying Tammy's fairy world story.

Shades-VI

Tamanna's never ending silence was something that Ankush was really worried about, because all the words she spoke were understandable,but understanding the unspoken words was really difficult, for the 8 yr old.Somehow managing his confusion he could convince Tammy at out bursting her mind to him and deliver the words flow once again.Tammy started with a very low tone, " It was a very unrealistic incident when I crossed him in the roads of my journey called life. Most unexpected but true it was as I could say now.The most common but equally the most uncommon way it was the way we met or better to say we spoke. I used to travel via buses for my college. In fact, buses had a really great value in my life,since childhood days. It was my second home since school days and the same continued till college days. I enjoyed my 1 hr journey all around the beautiful land scape, new people and many unexpected experiences, everyday. I loved it as each day brought some thing new with it, that some times taught new things and sometimes even irritated the most. But still the 2 hrs of my journey ,to and fro, were the most relaxing and awesome time I used to spend with me. It was one fine day when coincidentally or better to say accidentally ,I met him for the first time. He jumped into the bus and looking at the same vacant seat we both went on to fetch the same. He stamped on my feet and I felt stamping him even harder, thanks to my competitive nature for boys.I controlled my anger as he slowly said , "Sorry", as if he really meant and felt really the same. Even though not actually excusing him but I said , "Its completely fine", as a descent revert. After all I had won my seat in the bus and that too from a boy. That very feeling itself made my anger disappear in vain.I continued with my daily routine of gazing outside the window, flowing out of bus's boundary, lost in my dreamworld of achieving everything I desired,on my on cards.Suddenly a bag fell in my lap ,and I turned my head with such a great rage and anger ,as if I would kill the one who was disturbing my peaceful dreams execution process.But my anger melted at the very next moment as the person with such a sweet smile and guilt apologized, saying, "I am really sorry again, I got a push and lost hold on my bag, I am really really sorry." I just couldn't say a single word rather than accepting his apology. This was the 1st mistake I did, even though realizing that I was at the fault side.But at times its really true that you Just Can't Help It. I had never spared anyone if I find them guilty and I very well knew that he was guilty at that moment but couldn't say a single word. Don't know why but something from inside kept me away from saying a single word, and I again started looking out of the window , pondering on such an unusual behavior of mine."

Shades-V

Her never ending silence was broken when Ankush  called her aloud asking, "Plz continue Tammy, its very interesting,I really want you to go on." She just smiled at his innocence and back in the real world continued her words for Ankush, “It was completely unexpected that was happening with me. I had always been a very strict girl, when it came about studies, career and not to forget, boys getting over- friendly to me. As it was very clear in my mind that I didn’t want to ruin my dreams falling in the pit of shit, as I considered it since then. There had been many guys proposing and being after me but I never wanted to be in any loop. It was some Black Friday that I came in contact with him.”
 Ankush even more excited, but a little tensed kept looking at her, and expected more out of her. Tammy was even more surprised with the level of involvement he was showing in her story. She had never expected that an 8 year old would understand her better than the rest of the world. At times wonders happen and not to forget “Exceptions Are Always There”. She could  feel the level of concern he had for her ,and it made her remember of the someone who was once equally concerned for her. She smiled and continued, “ I always wanted to be a Doctor and really had to work hard for the same. I never spared time for other stuffs that a teenage girl would love doing, instead I considered it as a waste of money and resources. This also shows that I was good at debate and idealistic talks and not to forget I was always appreciated for the same. But when time and destiny throws a yoker , one can’t help being clean bold or move on to a sixer. But in my case it was a clean bold even after being completely aware that a full toss yoker is driving in. I couldn’t do anything except getting into it. There was no other option in my Multiple Choice Question assignment for the first time. It came like a blow and blew away every little thing in Me.”, she took a pause as she completed the last word. She felt she was flowing in the Pacific ocean of emotions and was not able to even hide a single flow of her emotional elements ,that were running in her mind since 5 long years. 

Shades-IV

"I was the most amazing girl during my school ans college",started Tamanna."Everyone called me an all rounder, good at sports and great at studies as well, music , dance, designing, everything one could think was on my cords", she continued.Girls were jealous and boys admired her and teachers portrayed her egs.

She went on and on with her story and the kiddo kept on listening with full concentration as it was his first science class. Tamanna kept on saying about her awards and rewards she earned in the meanwhile. Ankush was astonished about her story and kept listening as if some super story was on. “I was an all rounder girl, who would even take challenges with boys; in fact I loved taking such challenges. I was best in studies and would even give complex to boys when it came to sports. Bicycle rides to bike rides were all the stages at which I had challenged bunch of boys and won as well”, replied Tammy. The kiddo replied astonishingly, “Really, Is it possible that a girl can defeat and challenge a boy?” Tammy smiled and explained him the answer to it, “Girls are not weak and if they decide to win, nothing in this world can change it. Girls are very deterministic and would compromise any comfort to achieve what they desire”, added Tammy. “But at times she forgets her strength and power  in her inner self, and  then comes the stage, where she starts forgetting herself and in the due course starts loosing herself”, Tamanna said and went into her never ending silence.

Shades-III

Her eyes were so expressive that even the thick eyelashes she wore couldn't hide them. She was dumb stricken and speechless.But Ankush was still sitting confident and smiling a little as if he was analyzing her deeply. The very next moment he  broke his silence and asked her," will you mind if I ask you something?". Tamanna was thinking about the next disastrous question the little monster would frame in the most prettiest way. But still she replied," Yes you can kiddo..". Ankush impatiently asked, "Firstly, Can I call you Tammy?".Tammana smiled in consent. The very next moment he again asked," Will you please tell me about your Boy Friend,Tammy?". Her ears turned towards every word he spoke, she was not able to belief what the little monster had asked a few seconds ago. He again said," I won't mind if you had one or many earlier, my deal is always open for you." She couldn't resist herself from laughing out loud. She laughed until her stomach ached and her beautiful eyes got filled with tiny drops of tears. Looking straight into her eyes Ankush again asked her the same question ,as if he had decided not to go with his name this time, no full stop until he would know everything. She looked at him helplessly as if she was neither being able to resist disclosing it all nor was being able to keep it secret. Finally the 8 yr old's innocence melted all her emotions that she had hidden since last 5 yrs, behind her strict and practical purview. She smiled wiping the last tear drop in her eyes. The kiddo was assured that he will definitely get a yes from her side. The very next moment she put her consent, that she would tell her the entire story only if he could keep it secret. She was herself not being able to believe that she was relying and trusting an 8 yrs old in such  a crook world. But to some extent she was pretty sure and confident about what she was doing.

Preeti Singh: Shades

Preeti Singh: Shades: She was totally blank at that instant, as if something pricked into her mind and heart simultaneously. It seemed as if she was dead cold wi...

Shades

She was totally blank at that instant, as if something pricked into her mind and heart simultaneously. It seemed as if she was dead cold with such a silly question., that could even be noticed by the little 8 yr old. Her face turned pale as if she would either collapse or will burst into tears. Nobody out there could understand why was she behaving so different from what she had been a couple of hours ago. She turned out to be the most playful, joyous and kiddish girl as per her age but still overflowed with all the senses of maturity. A tear drop fell from her little eyes , but she wiped it ASAP. The little monster turned into a little angel, stood up and went close to her. He raised his little fingers that touched her gentle face and lifted her face a little, he wiped the next upcoming tear in her eye. She couldn’t keep away from hugging the kid tightly. He sat besides her with a question mark marked all over his head and eyes.

Tammana took his hand in hand and in order to lighten up the atmosphere asked him, “Will your parents accept me as  I am thrice as old you are kiddo?”. After the next couple of words she heard, she didn’t have a single word to say. He very calmly said, “They will be happy in my happiness and happiness relies completely on you”, and sighed after such a long sentence he managed to speak. The words choked her throat and she was not able to speak even a single word. She felt as if these were the most familiar words in her life after which she always stayed speechless. She felt as if she was still searching the appropriate answer for the same, but she was lost in the mid way.

Shades

“Do u have  a boyfriend”, Ankush’s innocent question made Tamanna senses into the depth of thinking and she was lost in her dream world. She met ankush in the train on her way back from home. Ankush and Aanya were the two kids who proved to be the best buddies she could have ever met in such a nasty journey. Ankush was 8 yr old and aanya was 12. These siblings were completely different in their inheritance, not even a single trait matched either of them, apart from the facial similarities they shared. “Do you have one, else shall I make a try”, was the next statement that he gave that drew Tamanna out of the world she had entered recently. She just smiled at his innocent and heart touching , concerned quest. But he was adamant enough to make her lips answer for the same. He kept asking her repeatedly, until she replied,”Not really”. The biggest mistake she did was to think that she was escaped.  The boy was more puzzled and wanted a clarification. Tamanna was surprised with the level of concern and in depth thought an 8 yr old was showing. She had no choice left, so she replied keeping her pace controlled,” I don’t have any “. The very next moment the kid was on his knees with the chocolate he got to sleep in time, without disturbing anyone. After all it was the most precious thing he was left over at that instant. “Will you please be my girlfriend, to share all my chocolates and video games?". 

Shades

Here I am with the episodic entry that I was talking about since last few days.
It will be covered by the name of "SHADES".
The central character of my story revolves around a girl named "TAMANNA" who is a very upfront kind of girl and never fears taking risks, if she feels the urge for the same.
She is  a very lively girl who would fight with all odds and evens just becoz she finds something wrong.
Her name completely compliments her as she has lots of desires to fulfill, not only the personal ones but for the sake of others happiness as well.
The story would take a U-turn when she looses all her real features, and moves into some other world. In the due course of getting into that world , she starts loosing her realistic living that was the base of her character and kind of person she was..
The story would remarkably put up the way she conquers her inner self to return back to the real self she used to be.

Hope all of you would like it, kindly make your comments in the due course as the story would navigate in the no. of pages..

TimeLine

Welcome friends!!!!

This is my new episodic entry by the name of  "TIMELINE".. 

Here I will be posting up on regular basis.

You will be finding new episodes added periodically.

The story will be moving in episodes and you just need to keep following on regular basis for the updates.

Need you support and appreciation.... :)

Thank and Regards!

Preeti Singh

 

Zindagi : Failures Weds Success: Bina Nimantaran Lifetime Amantaran

Kehte h failure is the key to success, but kisi ne ye socha  h k zada key marne se to khilona bhi kharab ho jata h to insaan kya cheez h. Bachpan se chabhi wale khilone se khelna acha lagta tha , but kabhi socha hi nia tha ke khud hi chabhi wala khilona baan jana padega. Kabhi teacher ne to kbhi friends ne, kabhi  family to kabhi formally apne aap hi chabhi bharni padegi. School college ke chik chik se bahar nikle to boss k liye khilone ban gaye.
Life ki to watt lagi rai. Kabhi acha hota to next step pr pehle hi ready rehte the k kch na kch to bura hone hi wala h. Wo kehte h na k har raat k baad subah h par har subah k bad raat bhi to h , ye kyn bhul jaate h sab.Nature kabhi  apne laws nai todta chahe wo insane ke liye hi kyn na ho. Jab zindagi milti h kitni khushi se hamara Happy wala B’day manate h. Jb 1 saal pura hota h uski khushi alag but kabhi ye nai sochte k yaaro hm chakraviyu k dwar me pravesh kr chuke h. Duniya k jhol jhal ka premium show start hogaya h.
Bachpan ke roothne manane se shuruwat to sai lgti h but jaldi hi kisi flop movie k script jaise lagne lgti h. Bachpan jaane se pehle hi adolescence aajati h and we start caring about our looks, boys ya girls k beech most attraction seeking element jo banna hota h. Phir aati h girlfriend/boyfriend stuff, jo bachi khuchi life ki watt lagane k liye more than enough hoti h. Ek dusre ko impress krne k chakker me khud ko bhul hi jaate h. kuch work out krti h to kch to nightmares ban k reh jaati h, jo bhulaye nai bhulta. Jo bachkar shaadi k stage tk pahuchti h wo already shaadi ka laddoo hoti h, to kch kehne k zarurat hi nai. Aj k dates itne economic h k time bachane k liye log ek din me do - do dates bhi plan krte h. Career k C ka pata nai but BF& GF hona to style statement h. Bache khuche jo career k bare me sochte h unko book worm, pakau ,aur pata nai kya -kya bolkar demotivate kr dete h, jaise bechare ne to koi paap hi kr diya ho. Achi baat ye h k har koi apni life ka kch na kch to kr hi leta h ,aur phir aati h “Boss Is Alwaz Right “ wali situation. Aisa lgta h mano hum to pay slip wale ghode aur gadhe h, jo boss k directions pr race laga rahe h. Agar galti se kbhi directions follow nai ki to ready raho k next  Atom bomb to apke hi sir pr exclusive girega. Kabhi appraisal ka locha to kabhi remuneration ka, kabhi colleage ka ditch to kabhi duniya bhar ka hitch. Puri zindagi nikal jaati h but ye decide nai hota k jine k liye kaam kiya ya kaam karne k liye jiye the?? Jb old days aate h to dimag ye sochne pr majbor hojata h k jb jawani me kisi ne nai pucha to budhape me to swayam bhagwan Shri krishan Sudama k liye  prakat nai honge ;ya koi bedtime stories wali kahani thode sach hojayegi. Kch bachi khuchi savings and pensions k sahare khud ko self dependent batate h but ye kyn bhul jaate h k hamare life ka hr minute kisi na ki pr depended hi hota h. Finally kismat achi rai to old days gold ban jaate h warna to…….
Finally kabr me pair latka kr baithte h, kuch home to kch 2nd innings home me. Kch masti marte h to kch khud marte rehte h. Fir finally end aajati h kch happy to kch is dialogue pr fit baithti h k-“ Har kahani K Ending Happy Nai Hoti”.
But is pure life cycle me hm ye kyn bhul jaate h k hmare life k base kya tha? Hr kisi k birth ka reason hota h to kyn hm uske liye nai jeete. Kehte h insaan jo krta h apni khushi k liye krta h, but in due course wo sbki  khushiyon k aage apni khushi bhool kyn jaata h yr?? kisi ka karz nai liya to aise behave kyn karte h jaise world bank se loan liya ho wo bhi double interest rate pr. Zindagi na milegi doobara dekhe k baad bhi ; 3 Idiots k jhatke kam kyn pad jaate h. Kyn multi-directional expansion ki jagah hm unidirectional focus nai krte. Life ek baar milti h yaaro , apni khusiyon k liye jeeyo ise aur apne sharto pr. Facebook chat se nikalkr kabhi khud se bhi chat kr lo shayad kch meaning full nikal aaye. Success & Failure to most apt pair h, unki shadi k guest to banna hi padega but dishes hm apni selction k enjoy kr hi skte h na?? Anywaz , “All the Best and Leave The Rest” ,k naare ko hamesha yaad rakho and move on guys………….
“Love yourself and love your life, rest will fall in love with you themselves………………………………………..”