Shades-IX

Tammy was afraid with the real senses returning back to her. But was she was more afraid about was loosing the smile that ankush had carried in the entire journey till now. She couldn't afford loosing such a precious thing in her life. After "HIM" it was Ankush alone who had managed reviving her back into what she was actually.It was Ankush itself who has made her realize how special she was ,as "HE" used to do earlier. She was very deeply afraid of loosing the same. Tammy even though knew that this wasn't a serious issue. Even then the lost things in her life made her react in such a strange manner.She no longer could take it and rushed towards Ankush from the door of the coach, she was traveling in. She hadn't realized her walk out of the coach thinking about all these things.
She entered the coach with a thud and headed towards Ankush, clearing the people coming in the mid-way. She was in such a rush, that she even knocked down one of the luggage bag of one of the fellow passengers. As the bag fell with a thud sound on the ground, she remembered the very instance when "HIS" bag had fallen in her lap. Collecting back her conscience, she once again headed to Ankush as if she would miss some train if she didn't reach in time.
Reaching Ankush's seat , she threw a deep breath as she hadn't taken any pauses in the entire run. Taking two more deep breaths, she went right in front of Ankush. Lifting his face and carrying it in her soft hands she held it upwards.Ankush red nose and rosy cheeks due to anger made her smile instantly. She smiled at her and kissed his forehead saying, " You are more valuable to me than any thing else I could ever have in my life".
The very next moment the kiddo with all her strength kissed and hugged her back. They Hi-Fived each other and continued with the same rhythm and happiness.

Shades-VIII

"Realizing his nervousness, I withdrew my direct looks from his face. Even I didn't want to create an unusual situation for none of us.Today he got down few stoppage before the one he took last time. I was very inquisitive but still tried being calm and composed as this wasn't suiting my profile, to be so impatient. Also there were fair chances of my friends catching a hold of my impatience that would be the biggest disaster. There was definitely something or some connection between us but couldn't realize the same." continued Tammy. Ankush with the same smile plastered all over his face looked at her, as if wanted to ask  Tammy some important question.
Raising her eyebrows, Tammy asked the Kiddo what it was. Ankush hurriedly jumped to his question as if was waiting for this particular ball to be in his court.He impatiently poured his thoughts," Tammy cross your heart and tell me something". Tammy was puzzled,but he kept insisting her to do the same. Finally Tammy crossed her heart for his sake.After being relieved with Tammy's crossed heart, Ankush continued," Didn't the same situation happen to you when you met me. I know you will feel shy saying that but let me know dear. Its totally ok. Tell me if you felt the same for me as well."
Tammy laughed at the end of her strength for the same. She felt all her vocal cords touched with such rolled on laughters, knots being tied in her stomach , she had had after meeting the kiddo. She just pulled his chubby and fairly pink cheeks and continued," I felt even more desperate after seeing you kiddo, I felt why were you such a late entry in my life. Why didn't you come earlier in my life." , and she started laughing again. She laughed till her stomach really ached.
Ankush was very smart and could understand the fun Tammy was making of him. He turned his face away from her, a little angry and upset. Suddenly Tammy realized his turn around and pulled him to her, "What happened kiddo? Why are you upset? Are you angry on something?" ,Tammy noticed his fairly pink face turning red and signs of anger floating all over the same.  Ankush didn't reply on even a single question of hers and buried his face even more deeper in his arms folded around his knee.
Tammy now felt really bad on hurting the kiddo as she was just kidding. It was her very old nature that she had carried. But with the practical life in full pace, she had avoided the same. She realized that she had again encountered her same behavior today, after such a long.
 She also realized that she had done this with only people close to her.She never kept any boundaries for them and in due course somehow hurt them without any realization.Same was the situation today. She started thinking about ways to bring back the same Ankush ,as it was ages ,she had felt the same. She didn't want to loose Ankush nor the real personal side of hers, returned in her.