Shades-VII

"Even trying to concentrate on my day dreaming fantasies, I was not able to concentrate. The sight of the sweet benevolent smile was disturbing the momentum of my dreams.Trying to concentrate on my dream track was getting really difficult, until he was seated besides me. Suddenly his rising from his seat ,caught my attention and  I started looking straight at him, thinking he was leaving the bus. Even he could easily understand my desperate look ,but suddenly, realizing the googly I turned my looks away from him, immediately. As a gentle man he got up to offer his seat to a needy old lady. This was the second thing that impressed me about him. From the very first moment I knew that I was thinking about him in vain, but was helpless in avoiding it. Finally my destination called me towards stepping away from the fantastic journey I was into.But the dream world ,his first glimpse had created was still flowing in the air. It was the first day I didn't want to step down the bus, even though I was about to reach home for my favorite lessons ,as already said I was mad working hard to tag my name with the two valuable initials "Dr."But I got down pretty sure that I would never meet him again.It was the my first night that went totally sleepless, no MCQs solved, infact number of new MCQs revolved around me.Totally helpless and clueless ,some how  I managed   1-2hrs sleep that got ruined with my morning alarm. It was difficult to believe, but had to believe that I was thinking about something apart from my life's dream.
Two days passed , same bus ,same route and same time , but what was not same was the one whom my eyes really wanted to look for.I started consoling myself that it was just a blow of a wind , that came and went.So, it would be fruitful to concentrate back on my already made dream ,rather than building a new one. But ,there is a famous saying,"Everything is pre-written and nothing can be re -written", the same happened with me. The complete week went on and I started to gel back with my studies but suddenly with a blow again I met him. The scarf on my face couldn't make him recognize me, but the smile on his face made me realize every bit of him even more than before. I kept looking at him and I could even realize his nervousness due to my continuous and static looks, straight into his eyes, that too from such a near view.", Suddenly Tammana stopped speaking at the sight of Ankush's expression that were so pure to personify. Ankush kept on smiling and listening to the story as if a movie was being played right in front. He kept on flowing the small packets of his emotions, accompanying Tammy's fairy world story.

Shades-VI

Tamanna's never ending silence was something that Ankush was really worried about, because all the words she spoke were understandable,but understanding the unspoken words was really difficult, for the 8 yr old.Somehow managing his confusion he could convince Tammy at out bursting her mind to him and deliver the words flow once again.Tammy started with a very low tone, " It was a very unrealistic incident when I crossed him in the roads of my journey called life. Most unexpected but true it was as I could say now.The most common but equally the most uncommon way it was the way we met or better to say we spoke. I used to travel via buses for my college. In fact, buses had a really great value in my life,since childhood days. It was my second home since school days and the same continued till college days. I enjoyed my 1 hr journey all around the beautiful land scape, new people and many unexpected experiences, everyday. I loved it as each day brought some thing new with it, that some times taught new things and sometimes even irritated the most. But still the 2 hrs of my journey ,to and fro, were the most relaxing and awesome time I used to spend with me. It was one fine day when coincidentally or better to say accidentally ,I met him for the first time. He jumped into the bus and looking at the same vacant seat we both went on to fetch the same. He stamped on my feet and I felt stamping him even harder, thanks to my competitive nature for boys.I controlled my anger as he slowly said , "Sorry", as if he really meant and felt really the same. Even though not actually excusing him but I said , "Its completely fine", as a descent revert. After all I had won my seat in the bus and that too from a boy. That very feeling itself made my anger disappear in vain.I continued with my daily routine of gazing outside the window, flowing out of bus's boundary, lost in my dreamworld of achieving everything I desired,on my on cards.Suddenly a bag fell in my lap ,and I turned my head with such a great rage and anger ,as if I would kill the one who was disturbing my peaceful dreams execution process.But my anger melted at the very next moment as the person with such a sweet smile and guilt apologized, saying, "I am really sorry again, I got a push and lost hold on my bag, I am really really sorry." I just couldn't say a single word rather than accepting his apology. This was the 1st mistake I did, even though realizing that I was at the fault side.But at times its really true that you Just Can't Help It. I had never spared anyone if I find them guilty and I very well knew that he was guilty at that moment but couldn't say a single word. Don't know why but something from inside kept me away from saying a single word, and I again started looking out of the window , pondering on such an unusual behavior of mine."

Shades-V

Her never ending silence was broken when Ankush  called her aloud asking, "Plz continue Tammy, its very interesting,I really want you to go on." She just smiled at his innocence and back in the real world continued her words for Ankush, “It was completely unexpected that was happening with me. I had always been a very strict girl, when it came about studies, career and not to forget, boys getting over- friendly to me. As it was very clear in my mind that I didn’t want to ruin my dreams falling in the pit of shit, as I considered it since then. There had been many guys proposing and being after me but I never wanted to be in any loop. It was some Black Friday that I came in contact with him.”
 Ankush even more excited, but a little tensed kept looking at her, and expected more out of her. Tammy was even more surprised with the level of involvement he was showing in her story. She had never expected that an 8 year old would understand her better than the rest of the world. At times wonders happen and not to forget “Exceptions Are Always There”. She could  feel the level of concern he had for her ,and it made her remember of the someone who was once equally concerned for her. She smiled and continued, “ I always wanted to be a Doctor and really had to work hard for the same. I never spared time for other stuffs that a teenage girl would love doing, instead I considered it as a waste of money and resources. This also shows that I was good at debate and idealistic talks and not to forget I was always appreciated for the same. But when time and destiny throws a yoker , one can’t help being clean bold or move on to a sixer. But in my case it was a clean bold even after being completely aware that a full toss yoker is driving in. I couldn’t do anything except getting into it. There was no other option in my Multiple Choice Question assignment for the first time. It came like a blow and blew away every little thing in Me.”, she took a pause as she completed the last word. She felt she was flowing in the Pacific ocean of emotions and was not able to even hide a single flow of her emotional elements ,that were running in her mind since 5 long years. 

Shades-IV

"I was the most amazing girl during my school ans college",started Tamanna."Everyone called me an all rounder, good at sports and great at studies as well, music , dance, designing, everything one could think was on my cords", she continued.Girls were jealous and boys admired her and teachers portrayed her egs.

She went on and on with her story and the kiddo kept on listening with full concentration as it was his first science class. Tamanna kept on saying about her awards and rewards she earned in the meanwhile. Ankush was astonished about her story and kept listening as if some super story was on. “I was an all rounder girl, who would even take challenges with boys; in fact I loved taking such challenges. I was best in studies and would even give complex to boys when it came to sports. Bicycle rides to bike rides were all the stages at which I had challenged bunch of boys and won as well”, replied Tammy. The kiddo replied astonishingly, “Really, Is it possible that a girl can defeat and challenge a boy?” Tammy smiled and explained him the answer to it, “Girls are not weak and if they decide to win, nothing in this world can change it. Girls are very deterministic and would compromise any comfort to achieve what they desire”, added Tammy. “But at times she forgets her strength and power  in her inner self, and  then comes the stage, where she starts forgetting herself and in the due course starts loosing herself”, Tamanna said and went into her never ending silence.

Shades-III

Her eyes were so expressive that even the thick eyelashes she wore couldn't hide them. She was dumb stricken and speechless.But Ankush was still sitting confident and smiling a little as if he was analyzing her deeply. The very next moment he  broke his silence and asked her," will you mind if I ask you something?". Tamanna was thinking about the next disastrous question the little monster would frame in the most prettiest way. But still she replied," Yes you can kiddo..". Ankush impatiently asked, "Firstly, Can I call you Tammy?".Tammana smiled in consent. The very next moment he again asked," Will you please tell me about your Boy Friend,Tammy?". Her ears turned towards every word he spoke, she was not able to belief what the little monster had asked a few seconds ago. He again said," I won't mind if you had one or many earlier, my deal is always open for you." She couldn't resist herself from laughing out loud. She laughed until her stomach ached and her beautiful eyes got filled with tiny drops of tears. Looking straight into her eyes Ankush again asked her the same question ,as if he had decided not to go with his name this time, no full stop until he would know everything. She looked at him helplessly as if she was neither being able to resist disclosing it all nor was being able to keep it secret. Finally the 8 yr old's innocence melted all her emotions that she had hidden since last 5 yrs, behind her strict and practical purview. She smiled wiping the last tear drop in her eyes. The kiddo was assured that he will definitely get a yes from her side. The very next moment she put her consent, that she would tell her the entire story only if he could keep it secret. She was herself not being able to believe that she was relying and trusting an 8 yrs old in such  a crook world. But to some extent she was pretty sure and confident about what she was doing.

Preeti Singh: Shades

Preeti Singh: Shades: She was totally blank at that instant, as if something pricked into her mind and heart simultaneously. It seemed as if she was dead cold wi...

Shades

She was totally blank at that instant, as if something pricked into her mind and heart simultaneously. It seemed as if she was dead cold with such a silly question., that could even be noticed by the little 8 yr old. Her face turned pale as if she would either collapse or will burst into tears. Nobody out there could understand why was she behaving so different from what she had been a couple of hours ago. She turned out to be the most playful, joyous and kiddish girl as per her age but still overflowed with all the senses of maturity. A tear drop fell from her little eyes , but she wiped it ASAP. The little monster turned into a little angel, stood up and went close to her. He raised his little fingers that touched her gentle face and lifted her face a little, he wiped the next upcoming tear in her eye. She couldn’t keep away from hugging the kid tightly. He sat besides her with a question mark marked all over his head and eyes.

Tammana took his hand in hand and in order to lighten up the atmosphere asked him, “Will your parents accept me as  I am thrice as old you are kiddo?”. After the next couple of words she heard, she didn’t have a single word to say. He very calmly said, “They will be happy in my happiness and happiness relies completely on you”, and sighed after such a long sentence he managed to speak. The words choked her throat and she was not able to speak even a single word. She felt as if these were the most familiar words in her life after which she always stayed speechless. She felt as if she was still searching the appropriate answer for the same, but she was lost in the mid way.