BULLSHITTTTTTT.........U and I....

U says, he is my past,
I says I believe in exclusive present..
U says, its all over,
I says there is always a beginning..
U says,U are not the perfect for I
I says, there is nothing perfect in the world..
U says,I would get better than U,
I says,U are the best for me..
U says,lets move on,
I says,the gear is still stuck..
U says,we would be the best friends
I says,I just need the best of U..
U says,U wants I to be happy,
I says,U are my happiness..
U says,we would maintain a distance,
I says,U are already  far from me..
U says,U would remember I as a person whom U wanted to be a part of U's life,
I says,U have become my entire life..
U says,take a decision and let me know,
I says,I had already decided in the beginning..
U says,things have changed,
I says,they had already changed..
U says,plan for your successful future,
I says,there is no planning for an unhappy future,without U..
U says,there s nothing in U's hand
I says,then why did U hold my hand??
U says,we are no more in a relationship,
I says, is relation  just a ship to sail??
U says,U's love will always stay,
I says, why can't U stay with it??
U says, live a happy life,

I says, kill me before I die.... 

U the Only U!!!!!

Ur words I relied , ur thoughts I replied,
U made me dream again,
Then why are the dreams now horrifying me??

Believing ur luv was my nature,
Being in it forever was my world,
Let the feeling mature
Ruining the moulds before they ripe, is not the actual source

I cannot be like this anymore,
The old practical figure standing numb,
I cannot be away from U,
Before I destroy everything within me, just come hold my thumb

Words would fail, feelings would die,
U will go away, but where will I??
That fine day I tell U,
It would not be me, but a par t of  me on the same numb drive......

Why does comma exist if full stop is the final verdict?????

Have you ever wondered on this simple statement. I did and I am doing it since last one month. Each time my energy is used in this thought, i think its definitely worth to be noticed. Out of such a busy schedule , if my mind is stumbling on such a silly question , there must be something thats beyond the silliness. But what?? Complete 1 month has passed and I am still seeking the answer to it. Finally I have decide to seek some help from you guys. Maybe I get an answer and moreover the peace I had been seeking since long.
My question is as simple as me. Why does comma exist in the English vocabulary , when everything would be put to and end with a full stop. Is there any suitable reason behind breaking  a complete sentence in the mid, when the end to it will be accompanied with the so called full stop. Since childhood I used to wonder why do such class tests exist, when one fine day we need to sit for the finals. And not to forget that the entire syllabus would be coming in the finals.People become professionals, the Big brats of the business world. They would write and learn great lessons over time management and optimum utilization of the same kind of stuff. Then what do you think these tests used to do , simply killing our time and energy. Some people say have patience you will get everything in life. Do they even have any idea about what everything means for the someone , whom they lecture. If patience was the keyword why were we forced to learn hard work. Can someone answer , when such hard work doesn't pay and the patience make people so impatient , that they start fearing even single minutes. The simple answer would be no. People take birth, then comes a comma, they go to school , again comes a comma, they move to college, make friends and many more things, easily understood, without explanation, and here comes the comma  again. The college places them to some great companies, paying rich perks, then comes the next comma. People start thinking that there is no comma no full stop, then after. Do you really think so?? The very next day a sudden accident, a sudden market downfall, or the most common a sudden break up , would disastrously turn you down. All the commas' would ultimately come to a full stop, with fair chances of getting along , apart from the fatal errors , that can never be cured.
People come over from all the things, but my question still remains open. If the end is static, why the hell do we need to go through all these mam. Doesn't someone like our happiness and patience or someone enjoys trick n treat with us. We move in professional lives , treading lots and lots of steps, one fine if something goes wrong ......... full stop.  Same with the personal life, we get along with someone, we love someone more than anything in our life and one fine day as the other half wants to be more professional, they would voluntarily put the full stop. Not even thinking what the other half would be going through.
When everything has to come to a full stop, why such breaks marked by comma comes, just to test our patience or to make the difficulties feel that we are more difficult than them..HA HA HA :D LOLZZZZ....

Hope we get an answer soon ...........
Or the best way is to such concentrate on marking the best word to come before the full stop and concentrate only on it, and forget about the commaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ and its breaks........

Shades-X

Ankush had put a new full stop in her life. It was such a long time, since she had paused or settled herself besides something. The innocence he had carried had forced the softer side in her to turn it on. All that she had buried deep in her insides , were now over flowing once again. She was not believing what she was being forced of doing, that to due to such a minor reason , that had come up out of no where in her life.

The sudden soft and tender touch on her left cheek, made her recollect her senses back. She looked up and could see Ankush standing right at her front. Her smile gave him an expression , that he was free to put up his next quest. Without loosing even a single minute then, he smiled at her and she could very well understand what it said. She needed to continue her story , she had left in mid. Starting from where she had left, she continued her flow of words, " He got down at few earlier stoppage than where he did last time. I could see him realizing my eyes watching his insides. He was even a little nervous as I did the same. It wasn't intentional, but my insides were forcing me for the same. Every single moment, when I wasn't looking at him I felt something missing around. This was the only reason , that despite his uneasiness I was again and again looking at him. I know it was absolutely stupid of me , but couldn't help." Ankush just kept smiling at the words, overwhelming with the emotions, within her. But ,she couldn't find enough space in her dreams to notice the same. She was lost in her dreams and kept on with her narration, "My stomach felt an unusual feeling as I saw him step down the bus. My instincts were forcing me to stop his steps and ask him to stay forever. I had never been such a kind of girl with over expressions, but this was a different situation today.  There was nothing in my control for the first time, but the best thing was that I was even enjoying this out of control feeling.  Neither h stopped nor could I stop him from going away from my site. There was only one thing I could do was watch him, as the motion of the bus dragged his sight away from me. It was the last time in the month that I saw him as my dream exams had approached and I had to work really hard. My exams even couldn’t keep me away from thinking about him and every expression that revealed his insides. The next few days went on in the world of exams and studies. This was the time I was working hard for both the exams, and truly speaking, both would let me achieve my dreams. One was the dream I had built since childhood and the other that had been built in the due course. None of them could be over looked as both had become the life blood for me.My will power was struggling between what I desired and what I required. It was a time ,when I had to decide which way to take as uncertainty was the thing that had surrounded me from either sides. Nothing was clear in my mind , neither my attraction to him nor to my academics.”

A Day at an NGO- First Experience

"A night at the call centre", I thought was the most unexpected night that could happen in one’s life. But, recently I have realized that not only night, but also a day at some place that one had thought in life can be of a similar kind. Dreams and aspirations play a vital part in one’s life, if you just dream, it’s not necessarily vital but aspirations add life blood to dreams.

Some thing of a similar kind happened with me last Saturday. I had been dreaming about becoming an Air Force Pilot, some times a Teacher and sometimes even Miss. World, but they only had images in my eyes, not in my mind. I never aspired to become the same, so I never became serious at becoming the same. Today that’s the only reason I am working with an IT co. and not with the Indian Air Force or some convent school nor am I doing ramp modeling for Lakme India Fashion Week. But, there was one thing that had been in my conscience since my childhood days.

It was even carried in my adulthood and still prevails inside me till date. Apart from the person I am and the way I lead my life, I had always aspired to some or the other ways do something for the sake of others. Those others, who don’t belong to my breed neither, are they my blood relatives, nor do I have any other friendly relation to them. Some unknown figures that I am connected, only for the sake of humanity. The bond that every human shares and wants to be shared, in case of need.

I had always wanted to help some needy people around me. I never left any chance in my life to fulfill those requirements that had been in my hands. But, last Saturday, I got an official chance to visit an NGO , in Jaipur , itself. It had been the beginning of my aspiration, to do something for the needy.  It was my first experience at such a place. I had no idea of how and what had to be done. Its an NGO that takes care and trains such students, who couldn’t continue their normal studies, due to either family problems or life constraints.

One of my immediate junior works there and I got this golden opportunity just because her. Firstly, I thank her to make me meet such wonderful folk of people. I was invited as a guest lecturer, for throwing lights on Retail segment of business world and certain soft skills training as well.

As I entered the room I could watch all the faces light up in anticipation, for learning something new from a new face. They all stood up together and I could feel the respect they had for the GURU, who would teach them, the right path for their bright future, a head. I started with a small dot that I drew on the white board and invited ideas about what they thought about it. They answered well, but not what I actually wished to extract. They found a simple dot, a full stop and point in it, but I wanted them to realize the beginning of a line from that point. Explaining them the other side of the coin was great as they were paying full attention to every word, I spoke.  

I poured out whatever I felt could had helped them. They were full of questions and curious to know about things, happening around. Giving them lessons about soft skills, I could feel what they most feared was about their communication skills. I gave them the tips and tricks to improve them without much effort and pain. The satisfaction they had on their face, released a real strength in me. I felt as good as it was the best thing I had done in ages.

Concluding the class, I brought them back to the dot that I had drawn on the white board in the very beginning, but this time I could see the changed angle of their minds. At last some one asked me about my introduction, it was then that I realized that I was so involved with them, that I hadn’t even introduced myself.

The best thing what I loved was that ,they were not only keen about themselves, but equally respected and wanted to know the person , who was taking care of them. I enjoyed being with them and would definitely move forward if I get a chance to associate with them or any other NGO as well in future.

This was my aspiration, and I got to achieve it more. This was just a mere beginning. There is also a request for all to kindly find some time from your busy schedule for betterment of all such things that really need an aid.

You never know that a moment spared for them could add millions of happy moments to their lives ……..

“HOPE AND WISH ALL SUCH FACES TO CARRY SMILES ON THEIR FACES AND SUCEED D MOST IN LIFE”

Shades-IX

Tammy was afraid with the real senses returning back to her. But was she was more afraid about was loosing the smile that ankush had carried in the entire journey till now. She couldn't afford loosing such a precious thing in her life. After "HIM" it was Ankush alone who had managed reviving her back into what she was actually.It was Ankush itself who has made her realize how special she was ,as "HE" used to do earlier. She was very deeply afraid of loosing the same. Tammy even though knew that this wasn't a serious issue. Even then the lost things in her life made her react in such a strange manner.She no longer could take it and rushed towards Ankush from the door of the coach, she was traveling in. She hadn't realized her walk out of the coach thinking about all these things.
She entered the coach with a thud and headed towards Ankush, clearing the people coming in the mid-way. She was in such a rush, that she even knocked down one of the luggage bag of one of the fellow passengers. As the bag fell with a thud sound on the ground, she remembered the very instance when "HIS" bag had fallen in her lap. Collecting back her conscience, she once again headed to Ankush as if she would miss some train if she didn't reach in time.
Reaching Ankush's seat , she threw a deep breath as she hadn't taken any pauses in the entire run. Taking two more deep breaths, she went right in front of Ankush. Lifting his face and carrying it in her soft hands she held it upwards.Ankush red nose and rosy cheeks due to anger made her smile instantly. She smiled at her and kissed his forehead saying, " You are more valuable to me than any thing else I could ever have in my life".
The very next moment the kiddo with all her strength kissed and hugged her back. They Hi-Fived each other and continued with the same rhythm and happiness.

Shades-VIII

"Realizing his nervousness, I withdrew my direct looks from his face. Even I didn't want to create an unusual situation for none of us.Today he got down few stoppage before the one he took last time. I was very inquisitive but still tried being calm and composed as this wasn't suiting my profile, to be so impatient. Also there were fair chances of my friends catching a hold of my impatience that would be the biggest disaster. There was definitely something or some connection between us but couldn't realize the same." continued Tammy. Ankush with the same smile plastered all over his face looked at her, as if wanted to ask  Tammy some important question.
Raising her eyebrows, Tammy asked the Kiddo what it was. Ankush hurriedly jumped to his question as if was waiting for this particular ball to be in his court.He impatiently poured his thoughts," Tammy cross your heart and tell me something". Tammy was puzzled,but he kept insisting her to do the same. Finally Tammy crossed her heart for his sake.After being relieved with Tammy's crossed heart, Ankush continued," Didn't the same situation happen to you when you met me. I know you will feel shy saying that but let me know dear. Its totally ok. Tell me if you felt the same for me as well."
Tammy laughed at the end of her strength for the same. She felt all her vocal cords touched with such rolled on laughters, knots being tied in her stomach , she had had after meeting the kiddo. She just pulled his chubby and fairly pink cheeks and continued," I felt even more desperate after seeing you kiddo, I felt why were you such a late entry in my life. Why didn't you come earlier in my life." , and she started laughing again. She laughed till her stomach really ached.
Ankush was very smart and could understand the fun Tammy was making of him. He turned his face away from her, a little angry and upset. Suddenly Tammy realized his turn around and pulled him to her, "What happened kiddo? Why are you upset? Are you angry on something?" ,Tammy noticed his fairly pink face turning red and signs of anger floating all over the same.  Ankush didn't reply on even a single question of hers and buried his face even more deeper in his arms folded around his knee.
Tammy now felt really bad on hurting the kiddo as she was just kidding. It was her very old nature that she had carried. But with the practical life in full pace, she had avoided the same. She realized that she had again encountered her same behavior today, after such a long.
 She also realized that she had done this with only people close to her.She never kept any boundaries for them and in due course somehow hurt them without any realization.Same was the situation today. She started thinking about ways to bring back the same Ankush ,as it was ages ,she had felt the same. She didn't want to loose Ankush nor the real personal side of hers, returned in her.